ER Nurse’s Life-Changing Experience with Psilocybin Mushrooms || Deidra Dwyer

Deidra’s history with psychedelics

I’m very new to psychedelics. About three months ago, I had a friend recommend psilocybin mushrooms to me, and so I did go up to Zide Door Church and become a member and got Loving Teacher mushrooms for my first experience, and I had some really good experiences.

I had happy, lighthearted, incredible experiences the first couple of times I used mushrooms. But it amazed me. I had a mushroom experience where in the three or four hours that I was on that trip, I had things come out that I didn’t realize were bothering me. I’ve been to a lot of therapy in my life and at different times.

I’m a nurse, so I’m aware of the medical world and mental health and that sort of thing. What the mushrooms brought out had never come out in my therapy sessions with anyone.

What the mushrooms brought out had never come out in my therapy sessions with anyone.

Deidra’s mushroom journey

They showed me that when I was little, I was with my dad who was a veterinarian. And from the time I was an infant until I was an adult, I was with him all the time. I was with him as his clinic. I helped him a lot. And I witnessed a lot and I didn’t forget any of these memories.

The mushrooms showed me these memories were bothering me and that I had experienced as a very young child, witnessing a lot of suffering and pain of animals, and I didn’t know what to do with it. Yeah, so really I had no idea. like frozen that in my subconscious. I think frozen it in my psyche. It was as if it was all there. I still had all the memories.

So in that time, I just saw myself as that little child witnessing lots of things happen to animals at my dad’s hands. Just things that they do in medicine and in farming. Things in documentaries, de-horning, lots of different types of veterinary medicine. I witnessed all of it and the animals not getting anesthesia and they’re in pain.

And I’m very empathetic and very sensitive to energy and always have been and I’m just standing there watching this from the time I was tiny.

The mushrooms helped me access things that were almost locked up in the basement of my psyche or the attic of my psyche that I didn’t even know were there, didn’t even know were bothering me.

One of the biggest changes I’ve seen since that trip is I don’t wanna die anymore. I had a whole year where I really just didn’t want to live, and not that I was.

One of the biggest changes I’ve seen since that trip is I don’t wanna die anymore.

As an ER nurse, what would you share with others about psychedelics?

I’ve been front lines helping people in mental health crisis and we throw a lot of medications at them. We sedate them, we restrain them chemically and physically and then we put them on drugs.

They keep having to go back to that don’t necessarily help. So I would love for this to be completely legalized and normalized everywhere. It’s plants. It’s plants.

I would love for it to just be accessible to everyone. And not gate kept. And not illegal.

I’m really angry at our American system and the whole war on drugs. It’s really been a war on people. It’s mostly a war on people of color and certain communities.

I’m really angry at our American system and the whole war on drugs.